it's happening again

turning to mucc vids & music to lift the mood
starting to feel more and more useless with each passing minute
why did i do this and why did i do that
why did i not do that
blah blah
BLAH

world's not perfect but why do i fxxking keep wanting it to be??

feel more comfortable posting here than on the main journal.

miya-kun's msg.. heart actually skipped a beat there when i saw it...
felt so heartened!
then i wondered... how's tatsu-chan doing... feels as if it's been a long time since he's posted anything... maybe pple in japan w keitai do hear from him? i dunno.
tatsu's vocals has been affecting me v much lately.
admire his singing.
admire his guts, admire his confidence, admire his style, admire his artistic talent, admire his humour, admire his straightforward manner.
seriously if not for the moshing i'd really like to stand in the middle section of the audience next time..
next time.. if everything stays the same, i might just be compelled to go japan in jun..
yes if everything stays the same, after jun it'll be no-go all the way till dec..
let's not think about that.